Self Sabostage

When good things happen to me, I somehow come up with ways to destroy it.

The best thing that has happened to me in my life is my boyfriend. I never imagined that someone will actually like me or see me in an attractive way.

He loves me a lot, cares for me dearly but he is different in expressing it. He is very minimal. Doesn’t it show it through presents or dates and to be honest I like it this way. But when we talk he is minimal as well. He behaves as if his life is boring. It frustrates me because when we talk, it’s mostly me talking about random stuff.

This then makes me feel I am not good enough or I am boring. This then makes me doubt his feelings for me.

I really love him and make such an effort to make this relationship work. It’s hard tho.

I say things and do stuff that hurt him and I sabotage our relationship.

I don’t know what I am doing.

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